I Thought

i thought that you were a friend, that you would be there to the end. but now i realize it did not good, just harm. now i sob quietly while blood roles down my arm. its crimson beauty a harsh outline against my pale flesh. nothing is fine. i lie to everyone when they ask if i am ok. i hide behind a smiling mask. now a quick death is all i hope for for each beat of my heart makes it hurt even more. i trusted you with all my life with all my happiness and all my strife. but now i hope to take my trust back, before on it you can make another attack, and finally break through to release the evil behind the shield i put up. i dont want it to fulfill its true mission: to turn me into a beast that will force me to feast on the suffering i will cause if it is allowed to grow because it will slowly overthrow my good person though i think its all i deserve.

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